Day 6: Once again, I'm surprised at what today's "love" moment would be. I thought I had identified the act of love that I had committed for the Lord earlier this afternoon, but you know, your day isn't over until it's over. Today, Love was taking a stroll with my mom at 9:30 in the evening. She was really upset, more so in an angry manner than sad or distressed. I won't go into the details because it's personal, but I'll just say this: Sometimes, people just need someone to listen. For me, this took a long time to understand. I'm an only child so in the past I've just kept my emotions or whatever to myself and never really felt the need or urge to say what's on my mind. If one of my friends asked "are you okay?" I'd say "yes" or "I'm fine" when I'm really upset inside. For those people who really know me, of course they know I'm lying. I don't have a poker face, so my emotions are right there on my sleeve.
Even now that I've matured (at least I think I have), I find myself venting to my friends, but sometimes when other people close to me are upset I tell them that their tears aren't worth shedding for that person/thing that hurt them... I hope that sounds right, I'm trying to say that they shouldn't waste their emotion on something/someone that doesn't care about them.
In actuality though, they just wanted me to listen to their cries of hurt and anger. And allow their tears to fall.
This evening, I allowed my mom to say what's on her mind. Of course I added in my 2 cents, it's my job :) as her best friend & daughter. But I noticed that I didn't full out dismiss what she had to say, nor did I tell her to just let it go. I wanted her to express her feelings and release the energy inside.
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